Where Are the Answers?

Today I forced myself to go to Church and worship God but I have to admit it was very difficult, there was and still is a heaviness I can not seem to shake. Not just over the incidents over the past three days but what I've experienced and witnessed being a black female in a racist world and feeling hopeless. There is nothing worst than feeling like there is not much you can do. And don't judge me I trust God, I pray, and I am willing to get in the trenches to try but the heaviness is still there. I am a single mother of a 23 year old son, and a 17 year old daughter where I have witnessed first hand the fear and prejudices on strangers faces when we walk in the room. The demeaning comments working in corporate America and never being good enough based on their standards all wear and pull on your spirit and soul.  Let me repeat again I am emphatically unapologetically a Christian and have a personal relationship with God but I am also human, and it's still a daily fight. I won't pretend to know the answers to the problems of the world and no one else does either that's why we have to all join together if we will ever see a definite change which is ultimately in the minds of people. How do you change mindsets and attitudes that are so deeply ingrained? Each time my Son leaves the house, or I don't hear from him my mind gets the best of me and I pray he is safe and alright. No parent should have to live with that or the senseless lost of their child, husband, father, or mother. Maybe the best thing we can do right now is to pray and help each other and seek God for the answers so we can get this thing right. There is an answer to these issues but I don't think we should rely on government officials for the antidote. Only God can give clear direction in a time such as this.

Seek His face...